I am getting even more confused on the man front,probably going to knock one on the head,am getting tired of his shit,but well things are progressing as expected but the fertility thing is on my mind,off to docs on friday for first test and then its a case of wait and see,I don’t actually want another baby,I mean I am 33 and my daughters 13 for Goddess sake,I am enjoying having some kinda life at least now,I’m not in a position to have one,finances or otherwise but my mind is obssessing at present about it,damn good job I am on the depo jab still,stupid fucking hormones and baby wanting little nano things running round my stupid head,plus the dreams are driving me mad,not pre cognitive although I think one might be and it is a bit scary but possibility dreams are racking up plus that damn nightmare is making me dread sleep,god my heads is fucked up right now,anyway so same as usual there then…..

And on a break from reality the new supernatural episodes did rock,now if I can only fix the pc I can watch the rest!!! at least sam and dean are constant in their ability to make life better for a while lol ttfn

Well today was pretty cool,we(me and my sister in law) managed to have a child(ie without my darling niece and nephew) free day to chill and do stuff,we went to the shops,for lunch and even went fish shopping lol,yes we are a pair of fish obsessed geeks I am afraid and I got a betta or siamese fighting fish a real pretty peach and blue boy but the picture is crap and picked up a wicked set of merchant style pine drawers for my bedroom which is cool considering mine died a death and fell apart,I can finally hide all my crap again,on the whole love life front still no change there and I’m really not sure what to do anymore but I don’t want to think about it at present so look a fish!! oh and don’t foget to feed my fish on this page too

OH YES SUPERNATURAL SEASON FIVE HAS JUST STARTED STATESIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!*does happy dance of ecstasy*
Dean and Sam are back!!!!

You scored 41.7%

Persephone

If you exemplify the qualities of Persephone, you have most likely experienced great loss in your life — the loss of your health or your emotional or physical security, the betrayal of a friend or lover, the loss of a child, your own divorce or that of your parents. This experience has forced you to face the dark, unenlightened side of yourself (the side that blames other people or circumstances for your own suffering) and transform yourself into a stronger, more independent, more accepting and more loving person. It may have also led you down a spiritual path, and moved you to place great emphasis on inner calm and on close connections with friends. You are capable of embracing, integrating and accepting difficult experiences. Because of that skill, you offer others the gift of empathy — you know where people are or have been.

You scored 25%

Hera

If you possess many of Hera’s qualities, you tend to find fulfillment in relationships and look on marriage as a permanent union. In marriage, you feel no sense of frustration or resentment, because you are an equal partner with your spouse. You are confident and have no trouble asserting your authority in and out of the relationship. You seek men who are self-confident and successful, because you are comfortable with the concept that you can be fulfilled through him (and him through you). As long as your partner honors the marriage as much as you do and appreciates you, you will be happy. If he doesn’t, you must concentrate on your own growth and discover an identity independent of him.

You scored 8.3%

Artemis

If you are ruled by Artemis, your independent spirit belongs to no one but yourself. Your body is vibrant, your attitude robust and your manner vigorous and alive. You are driven by physical rather than mental energy. You feel complete without a man in your life and would never compromise your essential nature for a romantic partner. You are skilled at establishing personal boundaries and enter into relationships on your own terms — in short, you can take care of yourself. This attitude may at times put men off.

You scored 8.3%

Hestia

If you embody the qualities of Hestia, you understand the value of having your own sacred place, whether it’s an actual room or simply a time of day when you free your mind of busy thoughts and experience peace. While home is your sanctuary, you are at home with yourself wherever you are and no matter who you are with. You know that the meaning of your life springs from your spiritual center. This brings you a great sense of security. You do not crave attention or material possessions; you nurture your friends and family with your unconditional love.

You scored 8.3%

Aphrodite

If you are ruled mostly by Aphrodite, your femininity and passionate spirit are the controlling forces in your life. You tend to be charismatic and self-assured, comfortable with your body and unrestrained sexually. Men are drawn to you like bees to flowers, which satisfies your erotic nature. However, you tend not to form permanent attachments with lovers because you value your sexual freedom, which may leave you feeling lonely and even depleted once a relationship ends. To find and form a more lasting relationship, you need to add more of the goddess Hera to your life.

You scored 8.3%

Athena

If you are ruled by Athena, you are bright-eyed, shrewd, resourceful and inventive. With friends, you are the wise counselor — always ready with an empowering message. You believe strongly that women can accomplish anything men can. No wonder you put so much time into your career. Athena women tend to be ruled by their heads, not by their hearts. You carefully guard your intimate side, protecting your emotions and vulnerability. If you want to awaken your unexpressed womanliness, you’ll have to use the same passion you apply to your intellectual achievements. It’s important that you work to integrate your strong masculine side with your feminine side — bringing together your strength with your vulnerability, your creativity with caring, your intelligence with imagination. Otherwise, you risk coming off as unaffectionate and self-righteous. Take lessons from the goddesses Hestia and Aphrodite to do this.

Read more: http://quiz.ivillage.com/cgi-bin/love/tests/goddessfinal.pl#ixzz0Rs68fQK4

took a goddess quiz,pretty accurate I thought

“The harvest is in; it is a time of acceptance of all we have and what we lack, a time of reflection on what we have achieved. The element of water is strong, the ebb and flow of the ocean tide, as we stand in the west of our sacred circle, reaching out to understand the mysteries of balance. This is a time of sharing gifts of abundance and strength, a time when participants bring to the rite offerings and presents for each other and the gods.”

which is a pretty quote from a book or website from my clutter of shadows but I can’t remember which one so if I have stolen it from you,let me know and I’ll add your link,nite world…..

I just found the pefect samhain dish

He takes my hand,lifts me to my feet and for now I can breathe,for now I can find her within and shelter from this brewing storm in his arms I am complete,my mind soothed and silent for the first time in years,in his arms I do not need to pretend or explain and that for now is enough.